The Grace of God

I don't think I've ever written down where I really came from. Where God found me and what he pulled me out of. So this day I will make a summarized list so that I will be reminded of God's amazing grace for all who believe. Remember this is only the things I remember clearly.

Childhood Days

- My dad smacked me so hard in the bathroom that I flew into the bath tub and layed there for a long time. This was because I kept bugging my mom for batteries for my toy.
- My sister and I were kicked out of the house for a whole night. We were just little kids and we climbed up to our neighbors patio.
- I was kicked very hard in the stomach when I came home late. He thought I was trying to fight back so he made sure I wouldn't get up.
- Whipped by a belt so hard that a chunk of flesh came off of my theighs.

Teen Days

- Locked out of the house for coming home late for a few days. I slept on a baseball field dugout and drank beer stolen from a cooler left outside someones garage.
- Beaten in the face and as blood flowed down, all I can hear was "I'm going to kill you!" over and over again. This happened after the school bus did not show up so I went back home.
- My sister and I got into drugs and alcohol and I became hooked on crystal meth.
- Sold drugs on the streets for more money and pleasure. Binge drank with my sister at the bars and no longer cared about going back to the university campus.
- Joined the Navy to get away from my dad. Found crystal meth sources and sold on the ship.

Adult Hood


- Kicked out of the Navy after two years after the NIS found me selling and using meth. On restriction for 3 months on the ship, I continued to sell drugs and doing drugs by sending out runners off the ship. My dad disowned me.
- Mom took me back in, but my dad kicked me out when she went to visit the phillipines.
- Christians took me in when nobody else would. I stayed with them for 2 years, while they secretly prayed for me.
- My dad left my mom for someone else.

Born Again

- God spoke to me through the easter message in 2005. He continued to bug me in my mind.
- Struggled with what I was doing with my life and broke down privately several times. Why would God want someone as bad and bruised as I was?
- During grave yard shift alone at work, i asked Jesus to help me and to show me who he was and if he was real.
- That hour I believed, i stopped smoking, cussing, getting drunk, telling useless dirty jokes, lusting after material things and sexual images. God taught me how to forgive my dad. :) To this very day, I continue to be transformed by His Spirit.

This is when I knew God was real. Because this was not something I could do on my own and these things weren't something I thought I would give up or even had to. But it was all God's work and for some reason He saved me. Out of all people, he chooses the weary, beaten, and bruised! And the reason is because of his Grace. Grace is God's undeserved love for mankind. Jesus pulled me out of the mud and I will never ever go back. But my purpose now, is to tell others that He desires to give them the same gift He has given me. Now I know why Christians all over the world share the Truth to the point of death. It's because of Love.

"Come to me all you people that are tired and have heavy burdens. I will give you rest" (Matthew 11:28).

"I did not come to call the righteous, but sinners, to repentance" (Matthew 9:13).